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A Summary 22 November, 2008

Filed under: Chinese Class, Relationships, Summer break, Uni, Upcoming Stuff, Work — Maggie @ 7:00 pm

Live. Love. Learn. Life

This entry has been sectioned for easy reading and well, actually just an easy entry for me. Coz I’ve wanted to blog but just not sure where to start and well, waited till now coz thought that there would be some photo-taking yesterday but there’s not so oh well and yeah. And, end of the week is a good time to post and reflect and summarise :]

WORK

Work is good other than not being paid this week due to me forgetting to fill out and give timesheet to boss/finance department… T_T damnit, then realizing like after work and then going in the next day to see if I could… I couldn’t =(

And from next week onwards I’ll be working there everyday from 12.30 – 2.30 as opposed to just two days a week… and when I’m back in West Auckland, have to train in everyday…. it’ll be like I’m going to uni! Heh… must be how its like for full-timers…. with the exception that I’ll be only working two hours a day! xD

It’s good. Gives me something to do since well, I can’t get a new (retail?) job anyway coz of me going overseas in about a month (hmm… actually month~ four weeks!! ^.^) so yeah, this is good aand obviously I will be getting more money and hopefully paying off that damn overdraft finally. It was supposed to be like paid off um, on Thursday? My last allowance payment….? Yeah.. didn’t happen -_-

UNI

I failed a paper.. It sucks, but oh well. That happens. =\ Actually got an F….. but hopefully I don’t think it matters next year since I’ve changed like from an extended Chinese major to a double major (in Event Management).. Ahh, more work (probably?) and like more papers to pass…. well hopefully it is interesting and just realized that I never mentioned this change of plan. The paper descriptions I rea seem interesting and have planned (really) small events and quite enjoyed it…… yeah, we’ll see what I say this time next year. Quite proud of that small birthday celebration for a friend that I planned, but anyways, this is getting off-track..

Got results back yesterday and it was good and bad (this was just for the Chinese papers). I passed Chinese II but I failed the year-long Written Chinese paper… fcuk. Oh well. It’s not the end of the world and like I said earlier, I don’t think this affects my degree anymore as I don’t think I need it anymore.. :] Got B- for Chinese II. Which I’m pretty happy about. My whole semester of (not-much, but much at the same time…?) study! :)

Still waiting back on a core paper, icomm. Not sure when will get those.. probably in the first week of December… hopefully earlier~

SOCIAL LIFE & FRIENDS

Social life has been alright this past two weeks, ever since I finished exams for the year. Been loved and visited by friends! ^^ That has been awesome. And hung out and caught up with a few others.. actually thinking back hasn’t really been much but a lot in my book. :]

This week saw a movie with a friend. Went to see Saw V. Friend didn’t think the traps/games were great.. “ametuer” in comparison to the previous ones, according to her. I thought that it was a pretty good movie, on par with the rest (but then realizing that I hadn’t actually seen all of them and think even thought that was the fourth~ =_=) but yeah now thinking back, I do agree with her comment, specially in comparison to the limb torture one! AH! >_<

Also went to the beach with classmates after getting results back. That was good. The was sooo nice! Definitely gonna go again (maybe, hopefully more than once!) before I leave for HK/China!~~ :D Also got like the typical kiwi fish and chips for lunch and the girls had icecream.. that was nice. Had it at that Gelato and Sorbert shop.. think that was what it was called. Had Tiramisu flavoured icecream.. wanted Rum and Rasin (alcoholic! LOL XD) but they didn’t have that flavour. Damnit. And then just laid on the beach for a while and soaking up the Vitamin D… when I got back, was feeling quite tired, maybe too much? Haha. It was great.

And speaking of alcoholic, met up with two friends after work on Thursday and well, ended up drinking at my place with some sushi that we made while watching some Home & Away~ ^^ It was nice. Quite excited about my friend’s upcoming birthday dinner :) (plans haha.. but also means spending T_T)

Good week :)

COMING UP….

  • Friend’s birthday dinner on the 5th.
  • And also before that am planning on a shopping trip to get a new dress for that birthday :) with my gift vouchers that I got for my birthday but still haven’t spent :P
  • Possibly another class outing (lol) on the same day since I have like work and the birthday dinner later that nigth and it would just be poitnless to go back and so yeah, hopefully~
  • CHINA/HK TRIP! – this is the most exciting and the one I cannot wait for!! Shopping, shopping and more shopping! Oh, and of course visiting and spending time with family and relatives. And also possibly improving my Chinese ;)

And there’s probably other little spontaneous things along the way in the next five weeks :) Actually, there will definitely be some more. I’d like see some movies that are coming out like My Best Friend’s Girl and possibly (yes, delayed, lol) Dark Knight too.. I hear it’s $8 atm…. anyone keen? (That’s living in the Auckland region haha) Oooh and karaoke again too!

And, lastly, which I wasn’t going to mention but maybe (actually it is) mention more indepth at my LJ (if you would like it, email me and we’ll see from there :) ) is the love life. Virtually, nothing to mention and nonexistent! As the saying goes, you can’t have everything and when I did have one, it was last semester and my grades weren’t too hot… but this semester it wasn’t too hot… actually FAILED! -__- but. Not the end of the world! That was a year-long paper and soo yeah… damnit. Maybe would of had a chance if I didn’t like um, pretty much fail the last exam! D:

But yes. That is my life in the past two weeks and also semester. Not much excitement or drama (no drama is great, thanks!) but was a pretty social and good year for the academics~ =]

We shall see what next year/semester brings with my changed double degree of Event Management and Chinese. I have also signed up for Student Mentors and so that should add some spice to the mix of things :) Can’t believe that another year is nearly over and will be going into the new year in another country! :D How exciting! =) Although wish we were going into the New Chinese New Year over there…. money! Hahahaha XD

I will follow this up with a list of my current favourites that you might like to check out…… tomorrow n_n

Hope you all had a great year/semester and that you all go into the new year with a bang! :D (I know I will be…. kinda… maybe. Okay. Not. Lol.) But yes. A New Year Is About To Come….. ♥

 

“Because Tonight Will Be The Night….” 29 October, 2008

Filed under: Musings, Relationships — Maggie @ 9:28 pm

I wonder if I should or shouldn’t. Make the effort. Try. I tell myself that it’s not worth it…. but then again… maybe it will be?

I don’t know I will ever find out if it will be worth it, because the second thoughts will always win.

This second thoughts isn’t based on nothing. It is based on the past. Past efforts.

Because, really, what has changed? To make this effort different from all the rest? But then again I want this effort to be different from all the rest as I want it all back.. normality….

But yeah. Nearly accepted its never going to happen. But still a small part of me, y’know..

 

I Don’t Wanna Wait 27 October, 2008

Filed under: Music, Relationships, Song Lyrics — Maggie @ 12:36 am

Love is the journey from wanting to having.” – Anthony Citrano

I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait for you
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait for you

Cause I need you
Can’t you see that I need you?
Cause I need you (I need you)
Can’t you see that I need you? (I need you)

Baby it’s you I want,
So stop wasting my time
And baby it’s you I need,
So please make up your mind
It’s time to choose

I don’t wanna say
I don’t wanna say
I don’t wanna say
I don’t wanna say
Say goodbye to you
I don’t wanna play
I don’t wanna play
I don’t wanna play
I don’t wanna play
Play this game with you (this game with you, this game with you)

Cause I need you
Can’t you see that I need you? (I need you)
Oh oh oh, I need you
Can’t you see that I need you? (I need you)

Baby it’s you I want,
So stop wasting my time
And baby it’s you I need,
So please make up your mind
It’s time to choose

Everytime you stay (every time you stay)
The world starts making sense to me
And when you go away (when you go away)
I wanna scream till you see…

I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait for you (yeah)
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait
I don’t wanna wait for you (wait for you, wait for you)

Baby it’s you I want,
So stop wasting my time (stop wasting my time)
Oh baby it’s you I need,
So please make up your mind (please make up your mind)
It’s time to choose

I don’t wanna say
I don’t wanna say
I don’t wanna say
I don’t wanna say
Say goodbye to you…

I Don’t Wanna Wait – The Veronicas

Lyrics from A-Z Lyrics.

 

Feeling This 19 October, 2008

Filed under: Musings, Photography, Relationships — Maggie @ 10:02 pm

I remember the day this photo was taken. And the feelings attached to it. According to the Flickr stats, it was taken on January 28 of this year.

That day, or around that time I was feeling disappointed over a guy and was feeling crap over it but my friend helped me get out of it and I’m not entirely sure if I was still feeling that way afterwards but I was pretty antisocial and just didn’t really feel in a social mood (God knows why I agreed to come out) but yeah.. I mention this coz I think I’m feeling similar…. but there’s nothing I can do… :(

This day was a good day. It was one of many that my friends and I shared of Summer 07/08. Great times.

And this will be my photography post of the week. Lol.. xD

 

❤ Friends 27 September, 2008

Filed under: Friends, Life, Musings, Relationships — Maggie @ 12:07 pm

Don’t you love it how….
~ one thing can lead to nothing
~ so much can change in less than three months
~some friends only talk to you only if they want something..
otherwise they don’t talk to you at all
~some friends, no matter how less you see them, and how less you t a l k,
they’re the ones you realize are the ones that matter most
~ that you pretty much have new people in your life every year
and you are close to and share almost everything with
and you’ve only known them for less than a year.
~ Next year you will probably have a whole d i f f e r e n t set of close friends..

But I hope that the close friends I have this year are the friends that I have next year.
And the year after that. And the year after that.. For a long time, really.
Coz they are the best. I my close friends
They are the ones that know almost everything that is going on
and who might hate me for going on about it so much
But so much love for putting up with it~ <3

You know who you are.

 

Playlist 7 July, 2008

Filed under: Life, Music, Relationships — Maggie @ 4:47 am

Edit// Too much. Just BTHE – Kelly Clarkson.

Fail. Good I’m easily amused.

  • Broken – Lifehouse
  • Cat and Mouse – Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
  • Leave Out All The Rest – Linkin Park
  • Wishing – S.O.A.P.
  • Boston – Augustana
  • Damn – Bellefire
  • My Heart – Paramore
  • The End – 48may
  • Rescue Me – Mumsdollar
  • Desperately – Michelle Branch
  • Beautiful Goodbye – Amanda Marshall
  • What You Got – Colby O’Donis feat. Akon
  • My Immortal -Evanescence
  • Only One – Yellowcard
  • I Miss Your Love – Maria Mena
  • The Reason – Hoobastank
  • Breathe In Breathe Out – Mat Kearney
 

Reasons To BLOG! ^_^ 30 June, 2008

Filed under: Friends, Holidays, Relationships, Work — Maggie @ 6:33 am

Edit// I was going to post another entry saying that I feel…. I don’t know reminiscent? I have just completely pretty much caught up on the lives of my dailies. :) But then now I feel some sort of nostalgia…. I don’t know why but yeah, I do. I will just go have a think about this before I sleep… in which I was meant to do like 45minutes ago… or maybe I’m thinking about something or someone else….. hmmm. Ponderings.

Sooo… I have TWO JOB things this week!!! ^_^

Thursday night got a Supre thingy… in which I have to like dress up and like follow the theme of ‘Dress to Impress” Hmm… this is exciting!! :D I can’t wait.

Kind of also means I’m probably going to be staying in the city for like longer than expected… was like kind of supposed to go home like today.. Lol..

And the second one is tomorrow, it’s just a little meeting and where the guy tells me what it’s about and such. So, yeah, that should be good :)

Hmm and Iike emailed SJS (Student Job Search) for another job referral… but yeah, I guess keep my job opetions open. I’d really like to get that Supre one! Dunno what it is about fashion retail but yeah… I want.

Sooo yes, happiness and such!

Oh, and the personal situation… hmmm I’m not sure like what exactly is going on there but, he’s talking to me and when I called him today, he didn’t seem unhappy? Yeah, I’m not sure, just confused but I guess he’s not like upset, angry or unhappy with me, anymore? Not sure. Weird.

So. I am pretty happy and satisfied and at ease atm :)

I would love for plans to follow this week and for the rest of the holidays! :)

I’m thinking of maybe wearing a dress on Thursday night…. ^^

Oh, and I had a nice coffee with my friend today after her exam :)

 

Hurting Another…. 29 June, 2008

Filed under: Friends, Holidays, Relationships, Uni, Upcoming Stuff — Maggie @ 10:21 am

that you quite like a lot…. sucks majorly big time! Especially when you knew and had a feeling that it was going to happen…. *sigh* My life is never simple and uncomplicated, is it? =(

I feel really bad and have apologized profusely and am and was pretty much speechless.. He thinks now I’m this awful person that doesn’t care about his feelings and this makes me feel quite crap. :( I hope it turns out good. That he can forgive me and possibly not hate me so much, maybe even like me again….. maybe asking a bit much..

Anyways… don’t want to make the post all about this, even though it’s a semi-large deal… in my private life..

Officially on holidays…. but what a great start. Really hoping that it turns out for the best for us… we shall see.

So… had a quite busy past few days… spent the night with a friend on Thursday night and then on Friday got my exam results… majorly failed one (T_T), not that good… thinking I will have to like do like really well next semester… good it’s a year long paper and can hopefully pull up my grade and make up for it next semester~ after getting our results, had yum char lunch with some classmates from my Chinese class (this is the ‘Chinese Class thing’, I mentioned in an earlier entry) at Dragon Boat restaurant. It was nice. I quite like the restaurant… though it was like pretty expensive.. $130 , I think… -__- then went to arcade and spent, I think a tad too long in there… but all good. ^^

After that, went to play pool at this bar and had a drink.. and I lost in my game of pool with another classmate :( it was a pretty like good game though! In which I actually sunk some balls hahaha.. so yeah. We went to a few other bars but they weren’t open yet and so just called it day.

And then yesterday met up with a Hamilton friend and just like hung out with her on Queen Street till another friend of ours finished work and then I went to dinner with some other friends from Hamilton that came up here to catch a flight to Wellington the next day (today). Pretty much had a free dinner in which I got other people’s food coz it’s like pretty big! So, good value for your money ^^ I got some fried dumplings too for $8 but there was leftover… today’s breakfast haha..

Today… was my first day in like aaages in that I can remember in which I had like absolutely NO plans! That was a great feeling when I woke up! Lol… I woke up and thought “hmm… wow, I have no plans… what can I do today??” Greatness! :D I love it!

And tomorrow, I have planned coffee with a friend that was postponed from yesterday but that’s all good… so yeah, I stayed in the city at my apartment for another day. Then going to go home tomorrow afternoon, probably. And do some more nothing~ oh and of course saving money.. :D

Don’t have anymore plans for the upcoming week… but hopefully~

If only I had more money, then life would be really sweet! :]

Would really rather like be sorting out the other situation but…. well I’ve done all I can and just gotta wait, I guess.

What have I got planned for the holidays…..? Absoultely. Nothing! Awesomeness! ^_^ I can’t wait. But yeah, probably will make some plans… that will no doubt involve the city…. I’m going to be going home out west for the holidays in a bid to save money which I think I mentioned in the last post….. Okay, maybe not. But yeah.

 

Procrastation@ Its Finest 10 May, 2008

Filed under: Musings, Rant, Relationships, Uni — Maggie @ 1:08 pm

I am definitely thinking that the next complication of my love life I will keep under wraps. Definitely. It’s not a good look to have in that I am wrapped up in my love life and well it may not be good in general.

I even like was wondering if I should have posted this blog…..

Edit// I HAVE BLOGGED!! THRICE~! But… the first of the three doesn’t really count as it is just links.. oh well. TWICE! BLOGGED! ^_^ Read, if you so desire :)

I bring procrastination to a whole new level! Anyone wanna take me up on that?

So. I was contemplating… hmmm what should I update/blog about today? Coz well I do update/blog daily(!).

For the most of today… or the past couple of hours, I have been watching/reading Asian-related stuff and well since I am Asian, I am relating to some of the said watched/read stuff. Like, for example, Nice Asians Guys.

I am sure there are not only nice Asian guys out there. I am maybe (50%) possibly quite sure there are also Nice Asian Girls out there too. Like… maybe myself, for example?

I dunno, though. I had a read of this blog entry at Stuff Asian People Like Blog and thought I related somewhat to the Nice Asians Guys, this made me believe (I so hope) that there must be other girls that are really nice too and don’t get anywhere other friendship.. :\ So, lead to a thread at Snark.

Hmmm… anybody a nice girl? No. I’m not going to ask for any nice guys, coz well, it seems (or we do live in a male-dominated world and so of course they’d exist (sorry if I offended any guys).

Not that I have had many um, relationships. If At All. So, let’s just say that my few and past not-even-relationships(?) (if you can even call them that….) I have had, I feel that they are or heading towards friends. :I Not that it’s a bad thing coz, well y’know friends are better than nothing? And friendships last longer anyways! :] This is not including the hookup with that guy I hate. He was just an ass and (probably… most definitely) in it for the hookup. It wasn’t even that great. Go figure.

Hm. So. Most of my posts have been centered on my love life. And I was just so wanting to move away from that! But… is it necessarily a bad thing? Hm. I was just like thinking and pissed off kind of today for talking about it too much and hmmm now… huh… well, isn’t this just ironic. But, I guess you could say (or not, could just say that I am just making excuses and making this all like sound better… anywho) that I am drawing on my past experiences to tell of being the (maybe) nice girl? I dunno. I just hope I am not being boring or pissing people off.. but I guess if you don’t want to read this, you know where the little ‘x’ button is….

Anybody else like this? Sharing and like recounting details of their love life? I mean, maybe not everything but with few exceptions? =\ Hmmm…

I guess maybe as like time passes and when I am not so like into this topic, I will most probably drift away. Here’s hoping!

Anyways. I think this rant shall end. And I should really be ranting about the one-child policy in China… Haha. =\ That is just so. Boring. T_T

Asian-related Links Not Linked: Youtube: Just A Nice Guy

 

Thoughts, Junk Food & Questions. Still. 7 May, 2008

Filed under: Holidays, Life, Musings, Online Stuff, Relationships, Uni — Maggie @ 3:59 am

Edit// Doesn’t help that almost everybody in my life either has or has acquired a SO.. sigh. :I

He is the only thing on my mind. >_<

I have a bought a lot of junk food in the past like couple of days..

Sigh.

I slept till I really had to get up today coz I was just feeling so crap. Sigh.

I think I need a distraction.

And last but not least, thanks for the comments and support :) I also apologize for the like constant stream of kind of depressing entries…. hopefully I get over this soon and well, resume not-so-depressing entries. Just that atm, well thinking of nothing but the… hurt I guess but I don’t know if its really hurt… /shrug. It’s definitely what has happened. Sigh. Really do miss the contact.. =\ I don’t know if its helping/if I made the right choice but deciding not to have any contact.. I also am not feeling very motivated to do much.. but just waste my time online… :\

I guess its good to get it out. Rather out then in? :D Heh…

Oh. Yes. A bit of shameless promotion, if you ever get tired of hearing about my complicated and atm depressing love life, then feel free to head over here – my first (and most probably last) filter blog that is only even existing coz of my iwrite paper. :I

Aaand coz I am feeling in a plugging mood of my like… own personal works, click here for my OC fanfic that I did for the same paper. Just so in case you get tired of hearing about my love life. Heh. :) Hope you like it. I do like want to do some writing and like fanfic-ing and such.. I’ve like even written like 2 (I think extremely) short stories, one for this like high school creative writing workshop and another.. ummm, just for the hell of it? I might share… like maybe in a million years, I dunno. Maybe. Keep checking back. Heh. :D

But yes.

I’m also thinking maybe I should like reply back to the comments in my like next entries in stead of like commenting the reply? I shall think about that.

I am also keeping in mind like, one post a day.. maybe two.. two at the most. Hmmm…

Well. This entry definitely strayed (for all the right reasons and a good thing) to a different note! ^^ Yeah, I think maybe blogging helps ^_^