I’m Annoyed. 28 October, 2008

I am very unhappily pissed off and annoyed today. At almost everything! (since I woke up anyway and in predominately everything I have come into contact with~)

First it was our apartment’s internet not loading any sites on my laptop but loading fine for Azmira..

THEN it was the Gmail Notifier… it has been annoying me for quite a while but not as much as today when ALMOST EVERYTHING is against me! -_-

*sigh* very unhappy…… maybe should put this annoyance into something productive like study…. lol. Maybe. Probably will be pushed to it anyways when I run out of things to do and people to talk (actually.. I already have)

So, today’s not been very great… oh, it has actually… it’s been balanced by two good… getting one of the situations Sabrina and I practiced for yesterday (but still ending up tripping up at the end -_-) and getting my charger for my laptop coz the one that I bought from Trademe will not charge my laptop~ =\

How annoying..

Hmm… possibly doesn’t help that I am only on like 4 and a half hours of sleep…… I could NOT fall asleep…. took me an hour! D: It sucked. I only had that happened once before this year and I think it was when i possibly had a bit too much to drink but, I’m not sure >_<

To Add Variety…. 17 July, 2008

To add some spice to this… I mean my blog, I have decided to occasionally movie review.. yeah, like right in my blog.. probably won’t be long but yeah.. just remember, it’s my opinions only and if you don’t like it, you don’t have to read. I’ll give like reasonable warning, so you know. 

The first movie… Bad Boy Bubby. 

I was told before watching it what happens in the beginning of the movie and personally movies don’t get spoiled for me, I reckon that you don’t really like get the real experience until you see it for yourself and up to this point, this has applied to me and yeah, movies haven’t been ruined for me… I don’t think. From memory. 
So, anyways. The movie. It was disturbing. Not as disturbing as Saw though. But it was really… different and wtf. I don’t think I have much more to say about this movie… soo maybe I’m not really into movie-reviewing. Oh well.

Something I do have something to say is.. wtf! Has like txt become the new pick-up place?! It’s…. really wtf… or maybe it’s coz I haven’t been hit on? Coz my flatmate was like, “imagine if you were hit on at a bar….” 

I think I have? By like my friend’s friend and yeah… but then I like immediately said that I had a boyf. Works wonders, that line! But yeah… I didn’t like the guy… or. Hmm… actually I didn’t like the guy and the fact that he like thought I was cute… okay, I know that it’s not like a crime or anything but…. hmmm…. I dunno. Maybe I should like see it as a compliment but.. /shrug. I dunno. Maybe I’m just odd. But hey, whatever. I don’t care. I don’t like that guy aand that could also like be seen as that I am a bitch or not nice….? Hmmm… I dunno. Random thoughts. Train of interconnecting thoughts..

But yeah, back to the main point of txting becoming the new pick-up thing. In summary, this number that I didn’t know (didn’t want to like assume it was a guy, which most probably it was since the number used the line – “How you doin maggie”) txted me like a string of stuff which began with like the number txting “Hi [insert the name that the number used/thought that it was/they thought the number belonged to]” and I just reply that they got the wrong number and then a whole shit load of txts ensue and I like didn’t even txt back after the the seven consecutive txts in which I did not reply to ANY. Like, wtf. You would probably think that the person you are txting don’t want to talk to you if they don’t txt back!! Like, the previous random txter I got, got the message quite fast after I didn’t like reply to him. But… this txter… hmmm…  /Shrug. I dunno. 

Sometimes people really do annoy me and make think WTF! Some people are quite stupid too.. And I dunno if I mentioned this before but, I tend to get these random guys txting me from like all over the show.. with one like getting my number from like an art desk at school… huh? What? Really weird…. *sigh*

I dunno about you but I don’t tend to txt people or like even make friends through random txting…. do you? Anybody ever experienced something similar?

It really gets to me sometimes. =\

Friends. 4 July, 2008

A possible little rant about friends.

So. Friends… how do you define them? How do you know which are your “best friends”..

And why is it that some friends you talk to so much that it seems you never run out of things to talk about and others that there’s just nothing to talk about no matter how much you try and that some friends you like don’t want to spend time with and that although its a little better than you expect it to be, most of the time you just like don’t want to spend time with them. And while others you like want to and like make the effort but its just like not reciprocated…

Like, it’s probably like a bad example but on bebo. You have “top friends”. Hmm, what’s that? Well, to me, it’s like my close friends and friends that I talk to often and such… I wish that there wasn’t a no.1, coz honestly, (not like it matters, but it kind of does to me…) I just like want all of the friends that I have on my top7 to be like no.1, coz they all like mean the same to me.. Atm, the no.1 friend is this guy that I met this year and well I don’t want to change it coz I don’t want to decide who is the next no.1 and so yeah, I’m like taking the easy way out…. not that like anybody cares (maybe him…. but I dunno)

And also on bebo…. how many of the “friends” that you add that you actually know and talk to on a regular basis?? I know that I only pretty much talk to the like mostly first half of the page and like occasionally really the first page in general…. tbh it’s quite boring….. hmm. I dunno.

For me, the friends I have on bebo are like 135 or something and they have all been people I have met offline apart from one or two. And, honestly I don’t know what I use Bebo for… oh, yes, that’s right. Procrastination and when I’m bored…. and then I go like change my profile page and skin. Lol….

So, yeah, there may be like different ‘levels’ of friendship… there’s close friends that like, you’ll most probably and definitely be friends with for a long time and that you’ll like probably be invited to their wedding (coz, believe it or not, uh oh, it’s our or my generation for like stuff like this… or maybe appropriately termed, “growing up”) and that no matter like how less contact you have with them, you at least like meet up every so often and like I guess make the effort.

I’m kind of tired of always making the effort and wondering when I’m like going to like have the effort made back. There has been this friend that’s been like I’ve been in daily contact with and then like now its suddenly stopped and well may have contributed to this entry. But yeah….

Maybe its that I’m so into like keeping the contact and of friends that I just don’t know when to give up…. =\ That I just keep trying even though its a lost cause and I may never be getting anywhere…. *sigh* I dunno. And add on top of that I think a hell of a lot then well…. you get me!

I honestly like don’t know whose going to be there like ten years later…. it’s kind of sad. Well, that’s a semi-lie. I know that there are like a few that I know and they know who they are coz a while back, something like really made me think about this and yeah I like realzied that that group will like always be there coz of a link.. and thinking maybe another two as well…. possibly.. that’s from like the Primary School days..

I seem to like change friends and have a new set that I am like kind of close to and like hang out with every year…. not to say that like I’ll like ditch the others, I still like talk to them and make the effort but… it’s just like differnet, I guess y’know. Like, the current situation with one of my friends… don’t talk that often/daily anymore and I can just sense a change but…. I don’t know. Maybe it’s too early to like draw conclusions, I did upset him and so give it some time.. but…. why does things have to change? That are like out of your control…

I’m feeling very nostalgic atm….

Just like thinking back on all my friendships… the pre-2006/last year of high school ones…. they didn’t really have much of an impact on my life other than that it led me to my post-high school ones in which I still talk to.. Primary School ones… I don’t really even talk or even see the friends I made in primary school… other than like my sister’s ones? Heh.. somehow they’re the only people I talk to from Primary and that I like regularly hang out with and another that I talk to on msn… and like friends that I made through work…. uni friends…. from this year and last year…

I dunno but I find it kind of slightly odd and weird how easily some people like say that “oh, they’re my best friend, we do everything together” etc… I find it hard to define friends.. like pretty much everyone I met are like friends after like hanging out and talking for a few days/couple of weeks. I guess maybe its time to use “acquaintences” and the like…

Well. I could just go on forever! So I think I will just end it here. Friends are…. kind of don’t know how to finish that… I guess friends are great when you know and its reciprocated but…. yeah.

Procrastation@ Its Finest 10 May, 2008

I am definitely thinking that the next complication of my love life I will keep under wraps. Definitely. It’s not a good look to have in that I am wrapped up in my love life and well it may not be good in general.

I even like was wondering if I should have posted this blog…..

Edit// I HAVE BLOGGED!! THRICE~! But… the first of the three doesn’t really count as it is just links.. oh well. TWICE! BLOGGED! ^_^ Read, if you so desire

I bring procrastination to a whole new level! Anyone wanna take me up on that?

So. I was contemplating… hmmm what should I update/blog about today? Coz well I do update/blog daily(!).

For the most of today… or the past couple of hours, I have been watching/reading Asian-related stuff and well since I am Asian, I am relating to some of the said watched/read stuff. Like, for example, Nice Asians Guys.

I am sure there are not only nice Asian guys out there. I am maybe (50%) possibly quite sure there are also Nice Asian Girls out there too. Like… maybe myself, for example?

I dunno, though. I had a read of this blog entry at Stuff Asian People Like Blog and thought I related somewhat to the Nice Asians Guys, this made me believe (I so hope) that there must be other girls that are really nice too and don’t get anywhere other friendship.. :\ So, lead to a thread at Snark.

Hmmm… anybody a nice girl? No. I’m not going to ask for any nice guys, coz well, it seems (or we do live in a male-dominated world and so of course they’d exist (sorry if I offended any guys).

Not that I have had many um, relationships. If At All. So, let’s just say that my few and past not-even-relationships(?) (if you can even call them that….) I have had, I feel that they are or heading towards friends. :I Not that it’s a bad thing coz, well y’know friends are better than nothing? And friendships last longer anyways! :] This is not including the hookup with that guy I hate. He was just an ass and (probably… most definitely) in it for the hookup. It wasn’t even that great. Go figure.

Hm. So. Most of my posts have been centered on my love life. And I was just so wanting to move away from that! But… is it necessarily a bad thing? Hm. I was just like thinking and pissed off kind of today for talking about it too much and hmmm now… huh… well, isn’t this just ironic. But, I guess you could say (or not, could just say that I am just making excuses and making this all like sound better… anywho) that I am drawing on my past experiences to tell of being the (maybe) nice girl? I dunno. I just hope I am not being boring or pissing people off.. but I guess if you don’t want to read this, you know where the little ‘x’ button is….

Anybody else like this? Sharing and like recounting details of their love life? I mean, maybe not everything but with few exceptions? =\ Hmmm…

I guess maybe as like time passes and when I am not so like into this topic, I will most probably drift away. Here’s hoping!

Anyways. I think this rant shall end. And I should really be ranting about the one-child policy in China… Haha. =\ That is just so. Boring. T_T

Asian-related Links Not Linked: Youtube: Just A Nice Guy

untitled 5 May, 2008

I so feel I have missed something. Stupid. Oh well. I don’t think it meant anything anyway. Maybe like a late night thing… that’s one of my friends thought… if you get my drift… but I’m not drifting that way eh… haha, I mean, I could.. but… ? Ummm… I’ll get to that when I cross the bridge~ in that he just wanted that and why he kept asking me over…

Oh well. I guess that’s in the past now and that nothing can be done.

Not going to like have any contact with him for a week. Thinking that’s the best thing. Just like have some time on my own to like contemplate, ponder and such.

He wants to know like everything… hmmm. *sigh*

Why? =\

This is just confusing the shit out of me. And he thinks I can’t like not text him for more than 2 days.. that I just cannot *bear* to not have any contact with him and that it just hurts me so damn much. /sarcasm. Tiny bit…. but yeah? Maybe it does. But I don’t really have to show it or like talk about it all the damn time. I just want to get on with moving on and forgetting about it… I mean that is the first step of the twelve step plan? (of like getting over alcohol.. haha oops, maybe bad analogy but.. meh). Maybe not forgetting about it but… y’know! Denying it till it comes true! Haha~ >_<

And lately, since the opening of this blog… its just been about my lovelife… sigh. Oh well. It’s quite interesting and well… hopefully I’m not boring you? If I am, you know where the little red ‘x’ is.

Well. That is all. A mini little rant..